I’d like to tell you a story. About me and my best friend and her drift-away.
The first day on my new school. That means, new people, new sorroundings, and no one to talk to. I came in and take a seat next to a girl up front on the right side of the room. To be forthright, she was plomp, red-haired, got a lot of freckles and wore glasses. But i’m not fixed of her external, ‘cause she seems quiet but nice. The teacher told us to open our books. My book wasn’t there so she pushed her book in the middle of the desk, so i could read in hers. While one of my classmates made a mistake when he reads, i was cackeling and she was cackeling to. The one thing led to another and we’ve started to talk and work together. She told me her name was Jessica. She didn’t really talk to much of our classmates, but she has talked to me. Maybe the reason for that was that i was from the beginning nice to her without prejudices. Time went by and we’ve started to like each other. To get it right to the point, she became my best friend and i’ve became hers. After 1 year after that, we were drunk at my house and talked a lot about us and our lifes. She’ve told me very sad things about her life. Based of her physique she was mobbed by a lot of classmates in elementary school and that’s why she has changed a lot schools. The older everyone were, the more everyone stopped bully her. But she was still afraid and didn’t want to go out. She was long time depressed and had Borderline syndrom. I’ve talked so long to her, that one day she has decided to go out with me, just one evening. And everything was okay, she felt comfortable. After that evening, she said to me : ” Thank you for give me the braveness, to go out. You make me strong and you’re a real friend and i’d never do anything to let that drift away. You’re my best friend, my bestie and my bitch, haha ” and i’ve never forget these words. I took it to my heart. Years passed by and things changed. We were on a new school and she promised me to prevade that. But she didn’t. After 3 month she broke it up and stayed home. I’ve showed sympathy. But she doesn’t mind. I was fixed of school, and she was defeated by her fear of other people. She was suspicious based of her previous experience. I wasn’t mad, i’ve accept it. But someday she found new friends on the internet. She skyped with them everyday and forgot about me. From the last year ‘til today, i’ve purerly eaten all that sad shit in myself. Just now i’ve recognized that she isn’t the same anymore. She is a stranger to me now. After 5 years. I’ve told her today our friendship isn’t the same anymore and i don’t want declarations or excuses. For me, the friendship turned into a acquaintanceship. She is the best memory i’ve taken with me from school. She was my side of the heart. Every day, we were together, even if someone was sick, or we were to lazy to went to each others house, we’ve skyped 24h the day. The definition of inseparability. She was my first, and only best friend. Every girl should understand me, it’s hard to lose the best friend. And for those who didn’t ever lose them, be glad about that. It’s painful. And i promise you, you’ll never find anyone else to confide again like once your bff. I regret nothing, not even the little tear runs down my cheek right now. And maybe she reads that right now. Maybe you recognized what you’ve let drift away now. I hope your new friends are better then me and give you what you need. You’ll struggle your way through life. Maybe you remember where you’ve slept, who you could trust the hole time. You’re unappreciative, but i don’t care about that anymore. Important is, that maybe someday you’ll remember who i am, and what i do for you. Maybe she doesn’t read til here, ‘cause she is busy with her new friends. - But if you do, don’t you forget about me.
That’s what life taught me. Friends stay short, long, very long, but not